Giving Myself Permission to Feel Grouchy

I am so grouchy today.

I’m grouchy that I want to write about feeling grouchy
when my blog is about living your best life.

I’m grouchy that my period brings on adult acne
and that I have painful welt-like acne on my face today.

I’m grouchy that my friend has cancer,
I’m inspired that he feels lucky to be experiencing it,
and grouchy that I think the weight I gained this summer is a curse.

I’m grouchy that my left eye is burning from allergies.
I’m grouch that I need extra fiber supplements to keep myself regular.
I’m grouchy that my stomach is always bloated and uncomfortable.

I’m grouchy because I have so many things I want to do,
and so little time to do them.

I’m grouchy that I live far away from family
and that my children don’t get to live close to cousins, grandparents, aunts, and uncles.

I’m grouchy because there’s always dirty dishes in my sink,
and I’m grouchy because I sometimes forget to put deodorant on before I leave the house.

I’m grouchy because I can’t always keep up with the clutter,
and I’m grouchy because my clothes no longer fit me.

Yes, I am very grouchy today.

But I am also thankful.

I’m thankful to have this blog as an outlet for my voice,
and grateful for the amazing social media community that I have grown to love.

I’m thankful that I have periods
because without them I would not have been able to carry my two children.

I’m thankful that my friend is going to beat cancer,
and that I am able to put a smile on his face.

I am thankful that I only gained 20 pounds this summer instead of 30 or 40,
and I’m grateful my issue is weight gain and not cancer or some terminal disease.

I’m thankful that I have two functioning eyes,
and I’m grateful that fiber supplements work.

I’m thankful that I get to do what I love,
and I’m grateful for the moments when I am still and doing nothing.

I’m thankful for my family,
and that my children’s cousins, grandparents, aunts, and uncles are healthy and alive.

I am thankful that I have food and dishes and a sink,
and I am grateful that I am free to leave house and live my life.

I am thankful for my busy crazy life,
and I am grateful for having clothing (regardless of the size).

I am truly blessed,
even when I am also feeling grouchy.